went to discovery centre with the class today.
suddenly i feel so.... KIDDO.
OMYGOSH.
its like WHO ON EARTH will go to DISCOVERY CENTRE at THIS age?
PENGS.
the place was FILLED with KIDS in PRIMARY SCH.
and i dun tink i learnt a thing from tt.
o wells.. at least its better than having to study in class aye?
=]]
then had drill prac.
didnt manage to do much drills...
most of it where talking and definitely reflecting.
i totally agree with what the ma'am said today.
all ma'ams WAN SUI.
lol.
besides reflecting, alot of things came to my mind after today.

so many things happened this year.
the few gains, the many loss.
i can never forget.
this year seemed to pass WAY too quickly.
i still remember a year ago when i was trying to appeal for 4a1 but failed.
and WHOOOSH~ i'm going to take my Os nxt year and finally graduate from xms and move on to another brand new but impt phase in my life, hoping to purue my desired dream.
and the few of you are gona leave me.
ahh the loss.
you're one loss i can nvr forget.
didnt even dream tt things will turn out this way.
so impt, yet time after time nth but obstacles between.
and finally, i give up.
but i havent given up totally, if not i wont be writing this.
there's just a part deep inside of me asking me to hold on and not let go.
but i know i shouldnt be wasting time and effort on it anymore.
cos i noe what the ending will be and it wil definitely hurt me more.
this time the wound is deep, way too deep.
guess it will take more time to heal then.
decided not to hate you anymore cos it hurts even more.
neutral, its the best.
i guess i'm a fool.
i suck at handling friendships.
but seeing tt you are so happy with others and have to many pple around you, i tink leaving is still the best option since it wont do so much impact on you.
oh, how i wish i can turn back time.
or even lose all of my memory.
best is tt i can get cancer and have only a few months to live.
then i can leave all the agony behind.
also, i wont have to bear the agony of losing my loved ones be it family or friends.
but pple will have to mourn over my death?
not many pple will do tt larrhx, moreover i aint tt impt.
even so, i will be forgotten quickly anyway.

yeahx i'm a fool @ handling friendships and being too nice.
and yeahx i'm a coward trying to run away from all my problems.
so what?