wee~~~
basking in sweetness of Goong.
lols.
it ROCKS.
should be studying larrhx, i noe.
so aft tis i shall go and study lerrhx..
yeahx.. i just need a place to say out my feelings, my troubles..
although i noe comforting myself doesnt work at all.
today went to help out at tampines.
lol.
ginny was SOO funny.
hahax. made us laugh a WHOLE lot.
hahax.
but i dun tink all those could change my feelings.
damn moody larrhx.
RAHH.
shut up and leave pple.
although i noe u dun plan to say anything.

leave this pathetic place of the pathetic person.


so many things i just dunoe how to express them out.
guess i'm a dumb fool. i really feel down right pathetic larrhx.

i'm reali stupid to actualli put in so much effort in all my friendships.
always the stupid giving party, nvr the receiving one.
all i ask for is some real TLC.
and i always dun seem to get them.
my feelings always seem to be neglected.
pple tell me everything,
not giving a damn about how i may be feeling.
wow. how impt can i get.
sometimes cant pple just be more forgiving, be more accomodating?
i have been so accomodating alreadi and tis is the down right crap i get?
aft so much i have done, THIS is what i get?

ever since i met u guys i changed, alot.
i tink i became so nice, too nice.
and pple will take advantage of it.
knwing it, i didnt give a damn.
now i'm regretting everything.
but when i try to turn my back and walk away, i just cant bring myself to make the first step and go off.
i put in too much effort, devoted so much in it until its difficult for me to climb out of it now.

i feel so desperate now.
ya, desperate for someone who will reali care for me, think of me, think FOR me and most imptly, love me an treasure me wholeheartedly.
but i noe its practically impossibile.
ha. what now, laughing sarcastically at myself.
i'm the dumbest fool ever.

i guess aft all these tt has happened, u must hate me.
u must be tinking alot.
accuse me? mistaken me?
guess you just dun noe how much u reali mean to me.
how much i did for you tt u cant see.
how much accomodating i did.
the tears i cried, the pieces o my heart tt broke.
dont even bother to come and talk to me.
its ok.
you go solve your problems 1st.
just leave me one my own.
after all, i guess i will be alright aft a while.

aft saying so much, i noe its useless larrhx.
no1 will reali change becos of me,
like how the world will not stop orbiting becos of me.'

the more i cry, the more pathetic i will feel and the more i will cry.
hence, i have made up my mind.
guess its time i became independent.
grow up girl, its time i grew up.
shall not reali rely on other pple too much.
its painful in the start, but it will get numb sooner or later.
moreover, i will most probably leave tis place sooner or later.

i'm starting to give up already,
i dun want to make it a habit to wait for pple to come back.
i dun want to be a fool accomodating to others.
i dun wana be neglected.
i dun wana be crawled over time after time.